So yesterday I made the choice to cancel my flight to Bali....
I followed my heart and gut and I have a lot of mixed emotions and confusion but I choose to surrender and allow these emotions to rise so that I can feel into the lesson I learnt by making this choice.
It was about making the decision to listen to my heart. I don't believe there is a 'wrong' or 'right' choice, once we have made our choice, it is our responsibility to surrender and trust the unfolding of a new direction.
Our environment isn't the only factor that dictates our experience. There is no saying that Bali, versus Sydney versus America promises a certain type of experience. What is our intention? How do we as individuals choose to move forward on our path and create a life that is aligned with who we truly are, a life that is aligned with our deepest desires... a life that is lead from the heart, not only from the mind, from love not fear. A life that is lived with presence, through connecting the head, heart and gut and through this alignment of self, guidance from our higher self, the universe, pure source channels through us. This is what allows for synchronicities and new opportunities so that we can grow and evolve, becoming more and more ourself.
The lesson I learnt is this; I said yes, when I meant no. This isn't the first time. Part of this is that I get over-joy, over-excited, coupled with a fear of missing out and a desire to please my loved ones and make them happy. Its a beautiful thing when we can bring joy into others lives, but we still need to ask ourselves the question, 'Is the choice I am making aligned with my desires? Who am I making this choice for?'. What isn't is alignment is when our heart is telling us something different then what our mind is saying, and we neglect this. This is when we find ourselves in sticky situations later on down the track, affecting not only my self, but my loved ones involved in the situation. Ironically, what I feared of initially ends up happening anyway, letting someone down, not pleasing them and not trusting my truth.
So, yesterday as I was sitting in my bedroom, I was sitting there distracting myself, snacking... exercising... youtube watching... and each moment I would stop I would find myself a little more anxious, a little more distraught, a little more mis-aligned. A voice said, 'Are you trusting your heart?'... inside I knew I wasn't but my mind interrupted and said, 'Never mind, you have to go, you don't have a choice'. Sometimes these lessons arise in uncomfortable ways but very rarely are lessons learnt in comfortable ways.
The idea of going to Bali took me into the mindset of viewing 16 days as an opportunity...but what if I looked at 16 days in Sydney as an opportunity, what if I looked at each day as an opportunity, every moment as an opportunity. So often we look for 'reasons', 'people', 'circumstances', 'trips', e.t.c. as the opportunity and many people sit around not tapping into their full potential until an external source arises. I realised that we are the opportunity, the opportunity is a materialisation of who we are within, which then radiates out. If we make a conscious choice to find ourselves in Radical alignment, whatever that looks like for us as individuals, each and every day, then we are the opportunity and we are open to receiving and channelling the divine so that every moment is an opportunity to tap into our highest self, highest frequency, highest vibration.
So two lessons I learnt from this;
1. Honour your truth
2. We are the opportunity, here right now, in this moment is the opportunity to come into radical alignment, and tap into our highest self.
What would happen if we surrendered to the divine in every moment? experience the abundance around us? the opportunity within each moment?
"There are no wrong turns, only unexpected paths".
Lately I have been harnessing my NET (no extra time) to fill my mind with new insights, lessons, reflections + knowledge through podcasts, e-books, youtube videos... This may be while you are at the gym, making a meal, driving, walking to work, lying in bed, catching public transport....
This morning, as I was taking my dog for a walk I was about to put on a Tony Robbins podcast but discovered my phone was out of battery....
In that moment, a quote from Mas Sajady entered my mind, "Clarify your mind, let go of all the past knowledge, and be it."
This passage grounded me in difference between learning information and being it. While new knowledge allowing for further growth, awareness, and realisations, it is the integration and embodiment of this that allows for the transformative cellular shifts to take place. If your intention is to facilitate transformation in others, you must lead by example.
So, instead of filling my mind with new knowledge, I made a choice to ground myself in the truth of my being. To align with my true nature in a series of walking affirmations. In the past, I personally have not been attracted to practicing affirmations...
Who we are, How we show up each day and the deeper WHY behind this choice of being dictates how we experience life.
Next time you go for a walk, make it your intention to practice walking affirmations, don't think to hard, just allow the affirmations to make themselves known and be present, making these affirmations part of your being and repeat them out-loud if you can or silently until you end your walk;
This is what came up for me this morning;
I AM WHOLESOME
I AM LOVING
I AM GIVING
I AM UNIQUE
I AM ENOUGH
"TO BE LIST"
If you are already in the practice of affirmations, try this practice from Gerald Jampolsky and Diane Cirincione-Jampolsky, of Attitudinal Healing.
Each morning start your day with a “To Be” list instead of a “To Do” list. This practice is focused on celebrating our “being,” the essence of love that is our true identity and our true natural state of happiness.
This serves to remind us of our core self which is so often hidden from our daily awareness by the bus-i-ness of our daily doings and thoughts.
Today my being is:
"Start living the knowledge that you study, so you are that knowledge."- Mas Sajady
Let me know if you try these practices and your experience :)
SUFFERING ——> GRATITUDE ———> BEAUTY