Free writing

Sunday 11th December

Breathing slowly and deeply, a warmth resides, the energy flows through my body… tightness dissolves, my gaze rests on the beauty surrounding me… What would I see with no labels… what would I see if reality as we know it was absent of constructs, definitions, ‘boxes’ of collected meaning over years of associations.
What if I was to see everything again for the first time? Ah, its an interesting thought…what if we saw from the heart… what would the world be like if we changed our lens…. such a shift in lens might seem to be ‘wrong’, ‘misunderstood’, ‘inappropriate'. If we take the responsibility to play our part, clean the heart, release negative charges, cultivate compassion, unconditional love, radical acceptance and trust, we become this beautiful, wholesome and powerful empty vessel the universe is calling for, a channel for beauty, a channel for the divine, with the sole intention of realising the radical alignment that is our birthright, radiating from within so we can contribute something greater, our tribe, our purpose.

I have been well-versed in the linguistics and practice of emotional intimacy… or emotional intelligence for  a while now and have often said, there are no ‘good’ or ‘bad’, no ‘negative’ or ‘positive’ but thinking makes it so. I have often read that by neglecting, suppressing or disconnecting from uncomfortable emotions that we cutting from the wholeness of our being. However, here I find myself, after a week of shifts, ironing out subtle kinks, stepping further into alignment, jolted by an intense wave of sadness, a feeling a grief, a fear of the uncertainty, a fear of failure, self-doubt...

It is in these times, I believe, that the universe is cracking us open, inviting us to integrate, practice and embody the lessons learnt, much like learning a new skill-set opens the mind, which we then proceed to demonstrating in the real world. It is an opportunity for expanding our abundance and joy threshold, an opportunity for integration on a cellular level, an opportunity to be embodied examples of our truth. Being willing to expand our potential means it only gets better and better, we become more and more aligned. This is a shedding of sorts so that we can take what resonates and leave the rest behind. 
As uncomfortable as these feelings of grief and sadness first felt… the contracting and tightening of my gut, a heavy heart, tears streaming down… We have two choices; to resist or to  fully surrender, ‘okay universe, I welcome these emotions to channel through me so that I can release, expand, shed and grow, so I can learn the lesson you are showing me'… through radical acceptance and appreciation, you have shifted from the lens of suffering (suppressing the uncomfortable, the unknown, rejecting your wholeness) to the lens of beauty (appreciating the beauty and gift of all emotions, the depth of human experience).