Hey beautiful person...
I wanted to write this message from my heart to yours, from my highest self to your highest self...
You are so worthy of love, first and foremost from your self; always. You are worthy of love from all sources in all directions, at all times, in all states, in all dimensions, unconditionally; all-ways.
When things might seem tough, its okay... its okay to allow space to breathe. Its okay to allow space to be. Its okay not to know. Its okay just to sit and allow whatever feelings arise, to arise.
Allow yourself permission to experience all that you are in your wholeness, welcoming all emotions and feelings, including the discomfort. Lean into the discomfort.
In these times, if you feel like 'distracting' yourself to dissociate from the truth of who you are in the present moment, realise that those distractions may be taking away from the beauty of the lesson, the beauty of growth, the beauty of a download. Within the silence, new insights arise. Face the space as you continue to evolve into the divine sovereign being that you are. It is within this space that your love for yourself deepens.
Just like when you loved ones are struggling and ask you to hold space and love for them, you too can hold that space for your self and be there for yourself. In those times of need, listening in non-judgement and radical acceptance of whatever arises, just like you would for those you love unconditionally. Make the commitment to be there for yourself. Make the commitment to love yourself, unconditionally, no matter what.
In these times, call upon the purest form of guidance, the heart, the universe, pure source. Remember, when you welcome all that you are, spaciousness provides and discomfort subsides.
Lastly, here is a technique that will assist in reconnecting you with your heart to allow higher guidance to flow through you...
Imagine there is a spiral staircase going down from the middle of your brain to the middle of your chest.
Go down the stairs. Step off the stairs and slowly turn to your left. There is a door there that goes into your heart.
Open the door and step inside your heart; remember to close the door behind you.
For a moment, see, sense and feel the love, compassion, beauty and acceptance emanating from your heart.
Feel the power of your heart. Feel appreciation for all that your heart has guided you to do.
Allow this feeling to permeate through the entirety of your body.
Be here now, in this all-encompassing feeling of the love frequency. Send love deep within your self.
Feel the love spiralling from the top of your head, down your throat, through the chest and the heart, sternum and solar plexus, circulating down the spine, the ribs, showering your gut with love, the genital's, your thighs, knees, calves and ankles, and gliding through each of your toes, then spiralling up and down your body, radiating from within.
Hold yourself in this space and remember the love that you are. Then move your attention to your breath.
So yesterday I made the choice to cancel my flight to Bali....
I followed my heart and gut and I have a lot of mixed emotions and confusion but I choose to surrender and allow these emotions to rise so that I can feel into the lesson I learnt by making this choice.
It was about making the decision to listen to my heart. I don't believe there is a 'wrong' or 'right' choice, once we have made our choice, it is our responsibility to surrender and trust the unfolding of a new direction.
Our environment isn't the only factor that dictates our experience. There is no saying that Bali, versus Sydney versus America promises a certain type of experience. What is our intention? How do we as individuals choose to move forward on our path and create a life that is aligned with who we truly are, a life that is aligned with our deepest desires... a life that is lead from the heart, not only from the mind, from love not fear. A life that is lived with presence, through connecting the head, heart and gut and through this alignment of self, guidance from our higher self, the universe, pure source channels through us. This is what allows for synchronicities and new opportunities so that we can grow and evolve, becoming more and more ourself.
The lesson I learnt is this; I said yes, when I meant no. This isn't the first time. Part of this is that I get over-joy, over-excited, coupled with a fear of missing out and a desire to please my loved ones and make them happy. Its a beautiful thing when we can bring joy into others lives, but we still need to ask ourselves the question, 'Is the choice I am making aligned with my desires? Who am I making this choice for?'. What isn't is alignment is when our heart is telling us something different then what our mind is saying, and we neglect this. This is when we find ourselves in sticky situations later on down the track, affecting not only my self, but my loved ones involved in the situation. Ironically, what I feared of initially ends up happening anyway, letting someone down, not pleasing them and not trusting my truth.
So, yesterday as I was sitting in my bedroom, I was sitting there distracting myself, snacking... exercising... youtube watching... and each moment I would stop I would find myself a little more anxious, a little more distraught, a little more mis-aligned. A voice said, 'Are you trusting your heart?'... inside I knew I wasn't but my mind interrupted and said, 'Never mind, you have to go, you don't have a choice'. Sometimes these lessons arise in uncomfortable ways but very rarely are lessons learnt in comfortable ways.
The idea of going to Bali took me into the mindset of viewing 16 days as an opportunity...but what if I looked at 16 days in Sydney as an opportunity, what if I looked at each day as an opportunity, every moment as an opportunity. So often we look for 'reasons', 'people', 'circumstances', 'trips', e.t.c. as the opportunity and many people sit around not tapping into their full potential until an external source arises. I realised that we are the opportunity, the opportunity is a materialisation of who we are within, which then radiates out. If we make a conscious choice to find ourselves in Radical alignment, whatever that looks like for us as individuals, each and every day, then we are the opportunity and we are open to receiving and channelling the divine so that every moment is an opportunity to tap into our highest self, highest frequency, highest vibration.
So two lessons I learnt from this;
1. Honour your truth
2. We are the opportunity, here right now, in this moment is the opportunity to come into radical alignment, and tap into our highest self.
What would happen if we surrendered to the divine in every moment? experience the abundance around us? the opportunity within each moment?
"There are no wrong turns, only unexpected paths".
1. Your beliefs
2. Your attitude
3. Your thoughts
4. Your perspective
5. How honest you are
6. Who your friends are
7. What books you read
8. How often you exercise
9. The type of food you eat
10. How many risks you take
11. How you interpret situations
12. How kind you are to others
13. How kind you are to yourself
14. How often you say 'I love you'
15. How often you say 'Thank you'
16. How you express your feelings
17. Whether or not you ask for help
18. How often you practice gratitude
19. How many times you smile today
20. The amount of effort you put forth
21. How you spend/invest your money
22. How much time you spend worrying
23. How often you think about your past
24. Whether or not you judge other people
25. Whether or not you try again after a setback
26. How much you appreciate the things you have
27. Whether or not you choose to raise your vibration
28. Whether or not you choose to transform your frequency
My personal experience;
I spent the last week in Waiheke Island, New Zealand, in a magical oasis, surrounded by lush greenery, vast ocean and vineyards. However, while my external natural environment could be equated to bliss, I stepped into a relational dynamic that brought up feelings of separation.
Below I share my journal entry that dives into the importance of taking control of managing your internal environment, cleaning it out and raising your vibration, so that your internal environment shapes your external environment.
"....Sometimes you find yourself in an external environment that you would consider your ideal... surrounded in beautiful nature, in the sunshine, mountains, walking... absolute bliss.
This past week I was so looking forward to coming here to see my Dad and have a beautiful relax. I arrived about two days ago and I was stunted, it was not what I had imagined. Rather, I stepped into a dynamic that felt highly uncomfortable, caused a lot of separation, awkwardness and misalignment with someone there.
Yes, there has been a history of separation, though nothing is said or done, its an energetic blockage between us. The first two days I really let it get to me, it shaped the lens in which I viewed this trip and furthermore, shaped the lens in which I viewed the world and my place in it. I took it personally and was deeply hurt. The blockage between us made me want to separate and distance myself, and it made me want to escape this environment, asking myself, 'Why the fuck am I here?'.
When I recognised how these feelings, I had chose to take on had started to transform my biochemistry in a way that was not from a loving, compassionate and accepting place, I made the choice, 'I don't want to be feeling like this', 'I don't want to be experiencing negative charges towards this person', 'I don't want to be feeling in energetic bondage and like I can't express my true authentic self'.
Furthermore, I don't want to contribute to the other person feeling the same way, I want them to be able to feel safe and free to express themselves, just as much as I want to.
In this moment, I have the power to transform, moment to moment. I have the power to transform and manage my internal world and clean it out, so it is no longer heavy, in pain, slumped, sad and drained.
Okay, so I have a few options,
1. Choose to remain stagnate and in separation.
2. Raise my vibration and take it as an opportunity for expansion so that I was no longer matching the frequency I was attracting.
3. Have a conversation with that person and express to them how I felt.
Fast-track forward; I picked the option I knew I could control, the option that would empower me, grow me and propel me forward. I made the conscious choice, conscious in the sense that I became aware of the patterns that had been formed and chose to delete the cycle of reactivity, separation and isolation from the subconscious/unconscious which had been reinforced over years.
I chose to shed, open and expand into a different vibration, one that allowed for a safe space to be created for the both of us, creating a presence that is allowing both of us to feel comfortable and safe.
So I made this promise to myself, and in the morning, energetically everything has shifted. Energetically she responded and the blockage was lifted to discover a new found freedom, relaxed space and surrendering to what is. The key here is that this was an internal choice, a choice I made to manage and shift my internal space, not the control and 'fix' my external space or try to change the other. It was a choice that came from the heart, from spirit, not from the head.
Magically, as we all know, 'Shape your internal world, shape your external world'.
This choice is one we can all make in any moment, in all moments, by tapping into the highest vibration and expression of ourselves possible. That is, one of love, compassion, openness, safety, freedom, beauty, gratitude, joy, play and acceptance. "
Later that week I looked up an energy update for that period which was very telling and had a little chuckle to myself :)
"We have choices — to either remain stagnant in the duality of lower frequencies, or make decisions that support our universal evolution, even if it means choosing a challenge or jumping into the vast unknown."
"The Square/90 angle reflects friction and tension. From an evolutionary viewpoint, this a place in our awareness where we are forced to make changes in our lives based on the friction and tension we are experiencing."
"The energy of Thursday’s Full Moon and this current lunar cycle are deeply connected our process of de-conditioning and learning to see ourselves in a new way."
"We slowly begin this transition from separation to real integration, we are asked many questions that have never been asked before."